hey to anyone who actually reads this (thankyou haha)!
It’s been a while, I know. I guess not a lot has been happening and it seemed I didn’t have a great deal to write about until now.
So Nashville is drawing ever closer, yes it’s only June, but it doesn’t seem 2 minutes since Christmas time and it’s now March. So it’s going to come around pretty quick I think. Plans are still being made, but everything is falling into place now. We’ve got flights booked, accommodation almost all sorted, festival tickets bought. just the small boring details like insurance to do next haha.
For the first time since we planned the trip, it’s finally starting to feel very real. I will admit, recently I’ve been feeling quit scared about going. It’s the first time I’ll have been away from home for longer than a week, and it’s also my first time flying so I think it feels like a million miles away, as I’m used to going places via car or coach.
but at the same time, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so excited about something. Recently, I’ve constantly had this overwhelming feeling about it. Like as if it’s meant to be? I don’t know, to some it might sound a bit strange, but I’ve got a really good feeling about this trip.
I don’t know how to say this without sounding a bit egotistical, but with coming from a northern English town and wanting so much to be a part of this kind of music, makes it seem like I’m/we’re made for more than this. (Kieron and I that is, and I think he’ll feel the same way).
When I put this feeling together with everything that’s happened in the past year, it all fits like a jigsaw, leading to Nashville.
Honestly I’ve never felt more passionate, determined and inspired as I do right now. I think it came from when I saw my favourite band, and the reason Kieron and I started singing together, Lady Antebellum, win 5 Grammy’s this year. I went on YouTube and watched their old road videos from 4 years ago, just before they got signed. And I was like ‘yeah, this is what we need to do!’. Our story right now is similar to theirs 4 or 5 years ago.
Also I re-discovered an old Lady A song that like my life anthem right now. It’s where I got the title of this blog from and It’s called ‘I was Here’. If you haven’t heard it then you can check it out here: Beautiful song. I heard it a while ago but it just didn’t hit me before like it did this time. I love when a song can do that! (They deserve 5 Grammys haha!)
So now it’s just all about going out there and getting it! But sometimes, believing in yourself is a really hard thing to do, and I’ll admit a lot of the time I’m the worst at it, I’m far too negative I know. At the risk of sounding conceited and people thinking I’m better than I actually am, I find it easier just to say I’m not great at things. Although I’m more confident than I was a few years back (hard to imagine I know haha). I’m getting there 🙂
As the wonderful Taylor Swift said: “Fearless isn’t being completely unafraid, it’s having fears but jumping in anyway”
And in around 3 months time, that’s exactly what I’m going to do!
Thankyou for reading, it means a lot. 🙂