Tonight I’ve been thinking about things changing. Change is something everyone has to face in many different scenarios. Sometimes change is for the better, and sometimes it’s not. Sometimes you know a change is coming and then other times it can take you completely unawares. That’s what I became aware of just now.
Earlier I put I put ‘ugh!…’ on my facebook status because things were just making me me a feel a bit ‘ugh’. You know what I mean, everyone feels like that. Being honest it was mainly lack of musical inspiration and a non existent love life haha. So a friend I haven’t spoke to in a while asked what was wrong and we got talking. We started to talk about old times, and how different everything was a couple years ago. I knew that someone we were friends with has just had a baby, and then I just found out that someone else we were good friends with has just gotten engaged. This came as a shock because we haven’t seen them for a long while, and you don’t realise what’s happening in other peoples lives. So this inspired me to just write this, spare of the moment blog. I’m not even thinking about what I’m writing to be honest, I’m writing as I feel and as I think.
So going back to ‘change’. My friend Gina said how she misses the college days with ‘the tea machine’ (long story) and all those memories from 2 years ago. We had a group of friends that was really good, that we really loved to hang out with and go to parties with. And I agreed, the college days were fun and I do miss them. And suddenly I think we both became aware of just how much things have changed around us.
Especially as I mentioned I don’t have any girl friends since the incident earlier this year where 2 people I thought were best friends didn’t turn out to be that at all. And Gina said she’s in the same boat, so therefore we’re going to have a big catch up next week because quite frankly, it’s been far too long!!
This past few months have all been about change really. If you’ve read the past couple blogs (minus the gig review maybe), then you’ll know that I’ve been happier musically and found a direction that I want to go in. Not only want to, but a direction I feel is right for me. And for the first time in a long while, something is being done about that. Writing, recording and going to the CMA fest in Nashville next year. Because I’m really doing something to make it happen, it feels like a big change. A big step up from where I was before summer, just going along to uni doing what I have to do to pass and not really thinking about much else. So this year when I go back to uni, I’ll know musically where I’m at and hopefully be able to use that more. 🙂
I think this year in general has so far been a year where everyone I know seems to have changed and grown up in one way or another, it’s a little strange because it all seems to be happening at once. Maybe this is just the year of change for me. The 19th year and everything’s starting to look different.
Things personally for me are probably change for the better, and so I’m just going to look forward to that and literally do all I can to fulfill the dream and goal God has given me.
And as for everything else, well it’s just getting used to a new way of things. We’re not the people we were 2 years ago and that’s just what we’ve become aware of tonight.
And mine and Gina’s catch up next week will be filled with the most random quotes and reminiscing haha! Looking forward to it chick!
Thanks for reading xx